#11 Freida Pinto
#04 Freida/Dev

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I've been saying this a lot.. not sure on my journal, but definitely in real life. This has been one horrible year. It's funny, it seems with each passing year, things seem to get worse. Then I end up saying "Last year wasn't so bad, compared to this year anyway." Hah! Seriously, good luck 2010! Let me see you beat this! ..But I really don't, I've had enough, really. =(

I've mentioned a couple entries back that I had to give up my cat, Heathus, because Jose and I were/are having major financial problems. Well, last week, his job at the hotel, The Four Seasons, where he got laid off I believe in April called. They told him that they want to re-hire him. Good news, right? The best news we've received in awhile honestly. When he was working there, things were seriously golden. No problems, no worries. Well, we were hoping that once we get back on our feet, we could adopt Heathus again, that is if he wasn't adopted already..

My God.. A few days ago, I went to this restaurant called "Brazzaz", to apply for a bartending postion. Anti-cruelty is a couple blocks from there, so after I finished my application, I decided to stop by to see if Heathus was still there, and if he was, of course I was going to adopt him again. They tell me... that he was put to sleep, because he was too violent during the physical. Too violent during the physical.. Too violent during the physical. They lied to me. That day when were about to give him up, I asked as many questions as possible. I wanted to let them know that if no one decides to adopt him, that they call me, and I'll pick him up. How heartless can you be?? What was the point of writing my address and cellphone number? ..They told me they keep the animals there until they are adopted, they said they do not put them to sleep unless they become sick or they get violent with the visitors. Nothing about getting violent with the vets, the staff, fucking professionals!! My question is, how do they expect an animal to feel when they are in a new environment and handled by strangers? Did they honestly expect him to act happy or calm? I don't think so. God I feel terrible, I believed them, if I had known, I would not have sent him there. Anti-Cruelty Society.. yeah right.

This is the worst thing that's ever happened so far this year.

I keep trying and trying and trying. All you can do is try right?

When is my time going to come? I have dreams, big dreams, and honestly, at this rate, I don't really see them coming true. Sometimes I feel like it's never going to happen. Sometimes I'm frustrated, depressed, stressed, fed up, and.. well, I'm not proud to do it but I complain, a lot. I rant, and rant and rant and rant. Sometimes I attack Jose, and sometimes he irritates me, lol. He does most of the time, actually Then I think bad things. Sometimes I get so frustrated and think about giving up, like leaving and returning home. I know that's not really going to solve my problems. I have taken big steps, considering the fact I've been pretty damn sheltered my entire life. It gets overwhelming at times. Sometimes it gets to the point when I'm not sure what I want to do anymore. =|

( Hah, thanks to the font of my layout, I didn't realise how long this entry really was. )

Well, I am proud to announce that I have passed the bartending school, and I have received my B.A.S.S.E.T certificate. I feel accomplished, I really do, I studied extremely hard, and I've worked really hard on this, so I believe I deserve this. We had to take a pouring test and a written test. I was definitely a nervous wreck. My instructor laughed cause I made such a big deal about testing. My hands would literally shake during the pouring tests, but you know, I'm not a good test taker. In fact, I hate tests, and I hate the idea of failing. Jose passed, too. Hah, we had the same exact score. We were like twins, both of us wearing black and red, and passed with the same score percentage.

But it's finally over. I am happy that it is, and I'm not at the same time. I hated waking up early for it, not getting enough sleep, and taking tests, but it gave me something to do. I'm not really all that happy because I have no idea when I can get a job. The school guarantees employment, when? Not so sure on that, and I desperately need a job. We're having such a hard time, Jose and I had to give up Heathus, we couldn't afford to take care of him. I can't get a freaking job, and his job isn't paying enough. God.. that was the hardest thing to do, it literally broke my heart, I miss him so much.

So if things should continue, or get any worse than this, he may have to find a cheaper apartment, and I'll have to move back home. That would suck so much, the main reason why I wanted to move, was to prove myself. It was a bad time to move, it was I guess, a little before the economy fell. I had no idea it was going to be this tough to find employment. Well, we'll see what happens, this has been a pretty rough year. Moving out has definitely opened my eyes, that's for sure.

OT: I hate reality TV shows. Except the ones about cooking.

The classes started today, and me, trying not to get too excited.. I hate for my hopes to get really high-- only for them to later get shattered, which will have me die a little more inside. Gotta tell yah, worse feeling ever! Not a fan of it. And dammit, I'm having some really hard times at the moment, and I need a miracle!! =[

So anyway, back to the school. This lady, Jennifer ( our instructor ), who is like-- omg hyper! I mean she's a really fast talker. She gave us our textbooks, talked about the rules, the necessities, how long the school's been around, how long she's been bartending, what to be expecting, yaddie yaddie yah, etc.. And then we started the class. First off, we have so much to memorise, it's insane! Three weeks?? You sure people??? She talked about the drinks, the drinking terms, trivias, the history of the drinks and where they originate, and all that lovely stuff. We will be writing the recipes of the drinks on index cards for studying ( which I've already done. =3 ) and I cannot forget to mention that we have homework to complete by the end of the third week. Examples:

• Listing two brands of the liquors we have listed on the form.
• Having three job interviews during our enrollment, mainly to report our results.
• Going to a bar to observe what the bartender does, then giving our likes/dislikes.
• Going on a beverage hunt to learn the different types, styles, brand names, etc.
• Then naming substitutes for specific products that's listed on the form.

ETC! cause there's a lot more. XD

Jennifer had us team together ( with other students that's been there for a week already ). There's like a little bar inside the school, only we're not dealing with real alcohol. The only real thing there would be the ice. There's a ton of real liquor bottles stacked like it would be in a bar, literally everything set up like a real bar, only the bottles are filled with coloured water. Today we had to learn about Two-Liquor Drinks and Coffee Drinks. We had to know the proper way of pouring and mixing the drinks. So the students were helping us beginners memorise our drinks, they tell us a drink they would like us to fix for them, and we literally try to do it as if we're serving a real customer, and then it was our turn to test their knowledge. Oyy, there's just so much, and it's going to get even more difficult with each passing day/week, but hey, it's fun too. So I'm liking it, and Jose as well. XD

I know I may sound like a broken record player but damn I hope this works out. I'm not going to let myself get too carried away. I will definitely do the "happy joy joy" dance if I ever get employed as a bartender. lol

Well, just a few things.

1.) O.M.G.. Hell's fucking kitchen was INSANE!!!! h35789rfwsr3$@#%35! O_o_O!

2.) Gotdammit, my TV died on me!!! >=[

3.) I'm boooored. -_____-

4.) Oh and I've changed my profile a bit. That is all. =P

I've decided to create a resource page. Listing all the sites where I've used images, textures, brushes, etc.. In case anyone wanted to know.

Senoritas

FREIDA PINTO
Freida Pinto {dot} US
Freida-Pinto {dot} US
Freida Pinto Fan {dot} Com
Freida Pinto Web Photo Gallery
The Fashion Spot - Freida Pinto


KRISTIN KREUK
Kristin Kreuk Web {dot} Com


UTADA HIKARU
Utada Net {dot} Com


EMILIE DE RAVIN
Emilie-Online {dot} Net

SELENA
Fotos Y Recuerdos
Tejana Reina

NATALIE PORTMAN
Adoring Natalie Portman


Senores

HEATH LEDGER
Heathens Photo Gallery
Ledger's Ladies {dot} Com
Heath Ledger {dot} Com


HENRY IAN CUSICK
Cusick Gallery {dot} Net

IAN SOMERHALDER
Ian Online Gallery



MICHAEL JACKSON
MJJ Pictures {dot} Com
Steady Laughing

Television

LOST
Lost-Media {dot} Com

Movies

THE DARK KNIGHT
The Dark Knight Screencaps Gallery

Graphics/Designs

BRUSHES/PATTERNS/TEXTURES
Fractured-Sanity {dot} Org (Brushes & Patterns)

COLOURlovers {dot} Com (Patterns)

Hybrid-genesis {dot} Com (Patterns & Textures)

BGpatterns {dot} Com (Background patterns)

_excentric_@lj {dot} Com (Patterns & Textures)

ETC...

FONTS
Dafont {dot} Com

ICON TABLES
LJ {dot} indisguise {dot} Org

So the family picnic was yesterday.

Man, it was a pain in the ass to get there. I find out at the last minute that my parents were going to be leaving a lot earlier for breakfast, and I was planning on taking the ride there with them. I had no idea it was going to be starting that early. *Sigh* To make a long story short-- I repeat, it was a major royal pain in the ASS to get there, enough to seriously piss me off, but hey, it's over. The picnic was just alright, but I honestly didn't have to be there. But I am rather happy that I went, mainly because I've gotten a little closer to my brother's new girlfriend, and had a lovely chat with my father. I spent some time with him since he couldn't do much walking, due to the surgery he had a few weeks ago on his foot. It was a bad day for a picnic though, I was freezing last night, stupid weather. -_-
My mom was happy, and she was happy I was there, and that's nice, because I'm never doing it again, =P

The day before, which was friday. Jose and I checked out that Bartender School, and it sounds nice! I told my parents about it at the picnic, and ..yeah they're a bit skeptical about it. Especially my dad, unless he knows for sure something is guaranteed, which is pretty much nothing nowadays, he won't get hyped up for it. I'm like that as well for the most part, but damn, something has to work out. So we spoke to the lady Jose and I had an appointment for, and because the two of us are joining together, she gave us a discount. The cost was originally $1,195, jacked down to $795, but for us, $695 each, for 3 weeks, and that's not bad.

Included will be.. let me copy this down, lol:

• Registration fee
• Tuition
• Professional Bartenders Manual
• Secrets of Finding a Job Manual
• Handouts
• Supplies
• Alcohol Awareness Certification
• Professional Bartenders Certification
• Unlimited Personalised Placement Assistance
• Guaranteed Learning
• Additional Practice Time at NO extra cost if needed
• Professional Business Cards
• B.A.S.S.E.T. ID card
• Graduation Identification

So I dunno, we'll see what happens. They claimed they will help find you a job, which is something my mom was feeling a little skeptical about. She said "They always say that." but said they might do it but for the ones that really stick out. Again, we'll see, you'll never know unless you try. XD

#08 Utada Hikaru
#05 Freida Pinto
#16 Michael Jackson
#01 Animated MJ profile banner

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( I like living this way, I like loving this way. )

Hello my lovely flist.

What's been going on with me you ask? Ah nothing really.. still no luck finding a bloody job.

Ugh. I was hoping this month would make up for the crap of a month, no wait, MONTHS I've been having. Okay, things could be worse, true! But geez, I would love for something good to happen for once. Man-- I've been looking forward to my Joker action figure, yes, that bad ass action figure I posted awhile back. For some reason, I thought it was coming this month, but I was wrong wrong oh so gosh darn wrong, D: Jose told me to check the site where I ordered it. So here is the funny part. I check, right? Underneath the price, it says "shipping", right next to it says "Fall/Winter 2009", my dumb ass, I realise there is a drop down menu, where it says "Summer 2009 +60.00" Ayyyye.. and ^^;;;;;;;;; So we call and I find out that he is not coming until Christmas! I refuse to wait that long. I can change my order, so it may come at the end of next month D: but hey, that's better than Christmas. XD

What else? Oh yes. Remember that Family picnic I was bitching about not too long ago? Yeeah... the woman got me, I told her I would go.. sheesh. I know for a fact that she would totally bang her head against a wall if I did not go, annnnd I would never hear the end of it. Jose will also be requesting a day off from work to go as well. So this is what I will be doing this Saturday, yaaaay! =) [/ending sarcasm]

The only thing I'm looking forward to is this friday. Jose and I will be going downtown to checkout this bartending school, that's right! You read it, bartending, and for once, I'm actually excited and reeally looking forward to it. I've heard great things about it, and it's not going to take 4 sodding years, but only a few weeks. I really hope this works out!Then afterwards we'll be going to the art's museum. ^__^

Oh and yaaay! I've changed my layout again, and mood theme. Yes, it is of Michael Jackson. The man was full of awesome, so yes.. like ONTD love to say, haters to the left. XD

I know I've been gone for sometime, I'll definitely check up on my dear f-list when I finally have the time. I have so much to do, I've been pretty busy lately -__- but this has been one really tripped out month for me... and I thought MAY WAS BAD!!!!! O__________O!

But shit, I'm still in shock. I cannot believe Michael Jackson is gone.. I never realised until yesterday, how much this man has inspired me. It's thanks to him that I got into website creating/designing. My very first website was created on him. Damn I can't believe it! I'm so sad.

I could kick myself in the ass for deleting everything I had on him, the site, graphics and things.. I had a chatbox on the front page of my site, and he left a message on it. Well, heh, I would like to believe it was from him, saying how he loved my site... and other stuff.. gah!! *kicks self* How could I delete it?? ;__;

Anyway, here is the very first .gif I have ever made, and the only thing I kept from that time.. *kicks self some more*



Hope everyone is doing fine, btw! =)

That's right, another icon post! On the beautiful Freida Pinto, my new girl crush. ♥

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( You are the reason that I breathe, you are the reason that I still believe. )

It's amazing how fast this year is moving, yet this horrid month seems to be moving like a snail. Bleeeeeeeeeh. -_______-

I spent a couple nights with the family since Jose was going to be working until midnight 3 nights in a row. Ugh, mom is still trying to push this family get together on me. It seems everyone and their dog is going, even my brother's new girlfriend is going. No dammit, they will have to drag me kicking and screaming!! HISS! >XD

Anyway.. new icon post! Well, sort of. I want to share some icons of the beautiful and talented Tejano singer, Selena Quintanilla. I've made these awhile back for a RPG game, and decided to share. =)

( Tú, tú sólo tú... has llenado de luto mi vida abriendo una herida en mi corazón. )

Oy.. Lately, I've reading a lot about the main Slumdog Millionaire celebrities, Dev Patel and Freida Pinto, and quite a few entries on ohnotheydidnt about it. Apparently, the two are dating in real life. Yeah, it's cute I guess, but I don't understand why everybody and their dog is wetting their pants over it. How is their dating benefitting anyone but themselves? LOL

It just reminds me that I'm so glad my celebrity obsessing days are over. I mean yes, I still have celebrities I fancy and adore, but not to the unhealthy extent that I had.. Especially when I was into Dominic Monaghan. When I found out he was dating Evangeline Lilly, I was filled with jealousy lol, and couldn't stand visiting any of his communities or sites, afraid that she would be mentioned. Silly silly me, but meh, I don't care what celebrities do in their personal lives, and it no longer interests me to meet them. Even though ohnotheydidnt is a celebrity gossip site, I could care about that, I love the comments, these people have me laughing hysterically.

But bleh... today has been kind of dull. I didn't really have much to update about. I just felt like updating. XD

Woooooow, it's crazy this weather, not too long ago, we were still battling the snow, and now it's fricken HOT! Drastic changes they are. Winter was honestly, the worst winter I have ever experienced, and it seemed to draaaag. So I am glad that it's finally getting warmer.. no more layers upon layers and hello skirts and short-shorts, whoo!! ^__^

In other news, LOST. First off, I just cannot get back into that show. To be honest, I have stopped watching when they killed off ______________. ( I'm not going to say the character's name in case others have not seen it, and are still planning to watch that season ) Awhile ago tried to watch a few of the new episodes just out of curiosity.. and they have totally lost me. And I'm sorry I have to say this but I do not understand why everyone and their dog is wetting their pants over Ben. O_o

BUT, reasons why I've brought this up. I have read on ohnotheydidnt that apparently Henry Ian Cusick, is being sued for sexual harrassment. Damn, I wonder how true this is. I find it hard to believe, I mean yeah I don't know the guy but, well, he just didn't come off as a person who would pull something like that. I don't know what to say about it, but, I do wonder if he's going to get the boot because of this. I know two cast members were booted off after drunk driving. *shrug*

To my amazement, I've not seen any screencaps of Latika ( Freida Pinto ) from the movie "Slumdog Millionaire". Until today.. right when I've completed mine ¬_¬ but mine has better quality!! =P So, I've decided to make my own and share, yay! =)

For those who has websites created for the movie and or Latika/Freida Pinto and you are interested in uploading these screencaps for your site, you may do so.. you don't have to credit me but it would be nice. XD


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also posted @ freida_icons & slumdogmillion

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{1.} Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons and you can pick five of your own icons to talk about.
{2.} Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons you I chose.
{3.} Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

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Yeah I changed the meme a bit.. LOL

So here they are:

1.)
Violet from "The Incredibles". I can't remember who I took this icon from and I'm not sure who made it since the credit was not listed. Anyway, I loved it, and she was my favourite character from the movie. I couldn't help but giggle when my cousin said she reminded him of me, yay! XD

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An icon of Selena Quintanilla, made by me. She was one of the most talented singers (IMO) back in the 90's. I'm not quite sure which event this was, but I'm guessing she had won an award. I love her expression here, and I use it especially when someone is complimenting me/my work. =)

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I love this icon a lot. Made by the user icondilemma at insanejournal.com. Matilda ( Léon: The Professional ) played by Natalie Portman, her expression here is so adorable. I'm not a bit fan of Natalie Portman to be honest, but I loved her character in that movie, and the best thing she's ever done IMO. And the rap she did recently lol.

4.)
I've been getting quite obsessed with the movie "Slumdog Millionaire", and iconed is one of my favourite scenes, even though it's a still, but still LOL XD. I love Freida Pinto, she's absolutely gorgeous! This icon was made by the user mimiliie.

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Utada Hikaru, one of my favourite Japanese singers. I thought this icon was really cute. At first I wasn't sure if that was her hair rolled up like ears in the back, but now I can see it's a hair band of ears, the colour matches her hair LOL! Icon made by user iconzicons.

Tagging: Anyone who wants to do this meme. ^_^